Thursday, April 12, 2012

Ow...just...ow...

Did you notice the subtle difference in this post's title compared to yesterday's? Yeah, today was SERIOUSLY not fun.

Between 6:30 & 11:00 am I had 4 tests run.  I started off with 2 CT scans.  The iodine contrast in the IV was interesting to say the least.

The worst was the bone marrow aspirate & bone biopsies.  Yes I said biopsies...they did 2 of those, 1 from each hip.  I understood they would at least give me at least an anti-anxiety med, but they gave me nothing.  Even during the first one I had in Tulsa that caused me so much pain they had given me an anti-anxiety med, and that one caused so much pain they had to stop. I had a massive meltdown & started bawling. I was so scared.  The ladies who did the procedure were so sweet & understanding.  They took extra steps to use extra lidocaine to try to make it as comfortable as they could.

After that the fine needle aspirate they did was a breeze, but I was really emotionally exhausted.

The good news is that at this point all my testing is done!  Hallelujah!!!!!  In spite of my meltdown, I know God has walked before me through this week & helped me through.  Also, my sweet Brian has been my rock.  This would have been so much harder without him by my side.  I couldn't ask for anything more!

When you get right down to it, in spite of this thing called cancer, I am one blessed lady.  I am married to my best friend.  I have an amazing, tenderhearted & caring son who makes me laugh every day. My Mama, in-laws & entire family support me unconditionally.  I also have awesome friends who I know are lifting me up in prayer every day.  How can it get much better than that?

7 comments:

Bette Dossman said...

Lifting you up, right now! Love you girl....glad those tests are over for you! I would have been right there with you, lady! Me and pain don't really get along!!

sandy98221 said...

Jana, What a day you had! I hope and pray your journey gets easier. They say God won't give us anymore than we handle and that is my prayer for you. You are such an inspiration its easy to see why your family's so good to you! Will you be heading home soon? And now to prove I'm not a robot!

Sandy

Gillie said...

Oh Jana, I wish they could have given you something, but they must have had their reasons, I suppose. Lots of love, prayers, hugs coming from the UK.

And yes, we do want to know, for those that don't, delete! xxx

Karen said...

Your words are an encouragement to me--thinking of the blessings in the middle of the hard times.

Praying for you.

OctoberLace said...

Jana, I'm sorry the tests are so painful, but glad you're so blessed with your loving family! Theresa

junebug561 said...

Boy, that's kind of miserable that they didn't give you anything to help you through the biopsies. Part of it may be that when you get 'conscious sedation' there is a longer time that they have to watch you, but doing bone marrow biopsies without anything is just mean (and I speak from personal experience). But at least the worst is over. Hope you get good news soon.

mdgtjulie said...

Glad you're getting the things done that need to be done, Jana. I'm keeping you on my prayer list, and hoping they can help you live as full a life as you can. God bless.